paper and control

After working through this week’s readings I shrugged my shoulders then threw up my hands in a gesture of defeat.  I am boggled by some of the work seen this week, and am also excited to explore the implications of my experience because these works, more so than any of the previous course work, seems to align itself with the reader(watcher) response vein of analysis.  I would like to look at the idea of control as Kira brought up in her blog posting.  Giving up control is difficult, having partial control may be even harder to handle.  In relinquishing control, we are led through different modes of awareness.  In working through Hejirascope and Pax, I was struck not so much by the work itself, but instead, how aware it made me of more conventional modes of writing and communication.  I thought about paper and pens and the fact that I couldn’t make notes in the margins of these hypertexts.  I thought about a typewriter and a letterpress and the red pen of an editor.  I thought about the work that went into my copy of The Collected Poems of Frank O’Hara, and the way that I had worn through the pages, flipping from work to work, dog-earing favorites.  Sure, I tried to construct a narrative in the randomness and repetition of Hejirascope and I did try to focus on something other than the blinking eyes of the Pax characters, but was snapped out of the experience by the sheer awkwardness of it all.  My appreciation of these hypertexts and the analysis of their work comes from the experience I had outside of the texts, and the awareness that they elicited in my thoughts about printed work.