I have very mixed emotions about afternoon. It’s almost like a love hate relationship if I must say. I went into Afternoon with a very open mind and no expectations. I started by reading the directions and was very intrigued about what the writer had to say. I liked the part especially when he said “the lack of clear signals isn’t an attempt to vex you rather an invitation to read either inquisitively or playfully and also at depth.” I liked these options going into the game. I felt like it was something I could enjoy at many levels and would get back from it the amount of work I put in. And so began the story…
The first thing I felt before I even started to read was, this is it? No color? No pictures? Boring! But then I began to read and realized you didn’t need any of those. Joyce writes beautifully, appealing to the readers senses. It was like reading poetry. There were descriptions about what you could see, what was heard. I could paint a visual image of the surroundings in my head. I then began to click words. I clicked words that sparked the most emotion to me while reading. I tried to pick words that I felt that particular page focused on the most. The words I choose usually lead me to a page that correlated to the words I choose. For example on the first go around I clicked the word secret and It lead me to a page asking if “I was sleeping with her” another time on a completely different page I clicked on the word jealous and it asked me the same question. This lead me to believe I was the right track and I had found a sort of pattern. But the more times I played the more I seemed to lose interest. I wanted there to be consistency. I wanted to know all of one part of the story before I was told about another. And this is where the hate came in.
I loved Joyce’s writing and the stories seemed interesting. I even liked the concept of clicking whatever words I liked. I just felt like there wasn’t enough consistency. I got frustrated when I had to start at the beginning again. It’s like we talked about in class I wanted closure and I never really felt like I got that. At the same time I think my frustration mirrors some of the emotions the character in the game feels and I think Joyce consciously did this. There’s one line in the game that made me think this and it said “I do know what you feel, you make some choices, you begin to see a pattern, and you want to give yourself into believing despite the machine.” I think this is how I felt. I thought I was getting somewhere, finding a pattern, and then it started all over again. And this brought me back to what Joyce said in the directions matching minds’. I felt like I had made a connection with something in the game that I had matched my mind and a specific emotion with the character. Maybe I was reading to inquisitively or at depth but that’s what I got from Afternoon. And I think that’s ok. I think Joyce invites to you to play this game and take what you want out of it. I think it’s an individual experience and everyone’s understanding will be different. Whatever you get out of it depends on you, either way it’s not a bad way to kill an afternoon.